2015 starting over

I am starting this at 300 pounds. So completely disgusted with where I am physically. I worked so hard to get under 200 pounds, to now be stuck at this gross point makes me sad, mad and completely frustrated.
It is time to clean out the system. It is time to get myself back in the groove.
I joined to do 3 miles a day starting tomorrow.

Veggie Lover falls in love

So for the past 3 weeks I have been off my program. I have begun dating a very wonderful man and unfortunately chose to eat as an expression of happiness. I realize by my bodies reaction that it isn't a good idea. So the goal is to get the foods necessary to be back on program Sunday. One of the side effects of eating cruddy again is I got sick quite quickly afterwards. Its time for me to get it back on track. I want to go out and find a dress for my boyfriend's birthday that will make sense for me look as beautiful as possible. I can only do that if I spend my effort on working towards a better me. I lost 16 pounds in 3 weeks and then gained back 8 pounds in the next 3 weeks. so now for a 6 week time period I have lost a total of 8 pounds. That is AWFUL...so love or no love this veggie lover needs to find her place so that she can do both, be in love with man and vegetables.

day 20

Breakfast
1 banana
Lunch
salad
potato
veggies
avocado
Not a productive food day only because I was exhausted from work and slept for 16 hours

day 19

Yesterday I ate after 8 pm and I always can tell when I do that. I have been struggling with putting food together, I don't really even feel like eating a lot of the time. The other part is it seems like so much work to just eat. I made polenta and pumpkin last night, so this morning I re-heated it with applesauce and raisins.

Breakfast
1 cup polenta
1/2 cup pumpkin
1/4 cup raisins
1/2 cup applesauce
coffee

dates (not sure how many)
2 bananas
green beans
potato
green salad
water

dinner
corn tortilla
avocado
grilled vegetables
polenta

day 18

I woke up this morning without a desire to get any food ready to go. I just didn't feel like  cooking, preparing or doing anything. Stopped at Starbucks got a black coffee and a fruit drink (all fruits) cost me almost $8 (ridiculous) all because I was being lazy.

At work they know that I'm eating all veggie salads so they prepared a veggie salad for me no anything but veggies and then I picked up fruit and water.

Breakfast
coffee
fruit drink
dates

Lunch
salad
1/4 cup corn
banana

corn tortillas
avocado
polenta
pumpkin
raisins

I so struggle to not eat just for the sake of eating. I also am fully aware that I have to be more cautious when I eat fruit too especially since I'm not working out yet.

day 17

I am at work today working on report cards, I get hungry so I bought plantain chips. Overall they are OK but not great for me. I am not eating oil on a normal basis, so I won't be buying these chips again for awhile.

Breakfast
1/4 cup polenta
1/4 cup raisins
1 cup apple juice
1/2 apple
Total =420

Lunch
Soup
chips
cantaloupe
banana
1/2 apple
Total= embarrassed to say

Dinner
soup
cooked veggies in olive oil
salad with pineapple

I ate dinner out, not really all that great for what I spent on veggies and cold tomato soup also known as gazpacho its amazing to me how expensive it is to just eat veggies and fruit, even when it really isn't. We all know how much time and effort it takes to cook up veggies versus a steak and yet I pay the same amount for three veggie sides as a half a chicken meal.

Day 16

I am on day 2 of week 3 and that I must honestly say is already exciting, I don't always stick to that which I begin. I am seeing results without seeing side effects, I am losing cravings for things and I find it easy to be around other people. It's easy to say no thank you, it's easy to accept a piece of fruit or vegetables. Most people have something like that around their homes. I can also make popcorn in a paper bag, I can take an apple, an orange or other easy fruits. Last night my friends were having dinner, my daughter was eating with them, I excused myself to go home and pick up some things before we went out and I found it very easy to also whip up a quick dinner. I knew I wouldn't get home until late and I didn't want to wait to eat until almost 10.

Today I'm off of work and I know I will stay on point because it's important to my well being. I also seem to drink more water when I am home then when I'm at school.

Breakfast
1/4 cup polenta 140
1/4 cup raisins
1/2 apple
1 cup apple juice
1 cup v8 juice
1/2 orange

Lunch
avocado
potato
veggies
pear

Dinner
avocado
soup
corn tortillas